After seeing stuff like
this, my life seems incomplete again. Things like these make me feel like I'm still a saccharine, pansy-ass MTV valley-boy like the rest of my school. Of course, who am I to single myself out, but still! I wish I could think that deeply... if I did, I wonder if I could come up with such work and design like that. Then I look at the Swamp - Blue, Green, and White. Barely any design at all. Of course, I don't want to be one to talk in lower case all of the time or put ::this:: around every statement, but heck, I just wonder how original I am compared to the rest of the world out there...
I'm not one to complain about the government and capitalism and such, because I'm not involved with anything about the government yet...
I'm not one to make anime faces, because I'm not exactly like others who do that (they can stand Slayers)
I'm not one to make a site with an original, amazing design... because... I just can't!
All I can do is make a neat, symmetrical design, without any imperfection or anything - and in design, imperfection is the key (as shown above in that link). The guy's an artist, of course, and he's older than me, but what can I do to acheieve that? An art class wouldn't take me that far, I don't think. The fact that I use NotePad to make HTML could be one thing, but still...
Envy drives me insane. I envy those who are older than me therefore have perfected their skill unlike me, or those who specialize in one skill, while I'm a jack of all trades. I can do so much stuff - piano, web design, acting, drawing, leadership, public speaking - but still, I'm not satisfied with myself. That can be a good thing, but I've heard of people who've gone insane because they can't acheieve perfection.
I think that's enough ranting for now. My seat's all sweaty.
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Goot Nacht.